| Meesh |
[May. 28th, 2008|11:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
So I spent today trying to sort out uni...
Downside? Still no prints and no printer good enough to print them and no pro lab in MK... Still yet to write my 300 word critical analysis of a photographer too... No money to buy a folio tomo...
Plus side? Talked my way into an interview at northampton uni next week for their degree course too so now can decide between Westminster uni with it's very very good facilities and northampton with it's proximity to me...
Cute thing of the day? Matt curled up asleep on teh sofa right now... :)
so we're having a handfasting, maybe on summer solstice maybe on aug 1st... dunno wether to keep it down to 2 or 3 'witnesses' or wether to have a big event of it... Tending much toward a very personal ceremony and keep the big event for the 'more conventional' wedding.... |
|
|
| uni interview folio stress |
[May. 28th, 2008|03:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
Life goes by so quickly and my life is full of so much that these sporadic posts just can't bridge the gaps...
Today I am mainly panicing about my university interview on friday for my photgraphy degree and I am trying to write a statement, a critic of aa photographer, choose my images for my folio, get them printed and decide how to present them.
Yes. two days before. *hand forehead*
Will I ever learn? doubt it... |
|
|
| Kernow |
[May. 19th, 2008|11:04 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  enthralled | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nina simone | ] |
Well.
Matt arrived home to me at 10 pm sat night after a complicated afternoon with his kids and more to the point (ex) wife.
When he got home we decided to pack the truck and go to Cornwall! Brilliant!
We stuffed stuff in the truck, clothes, wash stuff, duvets and Music, coffee and food and left.
We drove through the night and arrived on Polzeath beach at 5 am, the sky was light and the tide was right in. We drove onto the beach and I, in my childlike excitement, bounced out of the truck and ran full pelt into the sea :D YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!
Then realised a) it was cold b) my DC's were soaked along with my trousers, knickers and socks and c) We needed to get some sleep! So I took of my wet clothes and we drove up onto the cliff top, parked up, made a bed in the back of the pick up curled up together, watched the ocean sparkling then cuddled up and slept for 4/5 hours.
I woke up and listened to Matt being awake, I could feel him watching the ocean and being ridiculously happy. He opened the back of the truck up properly and I Sat up next to him cuddled up in the duvet watching the ocean, the cliffs, the seagulls, the surfers and the sun playing among the waves. It was divine. What a way to spend a lazy sunday morning after having driven through the night!!!
We got up and out of the truck at 12 ish, i went to get washed and when I got back Matt was bouncing waiting ready to go down the cliffs to the sea :D I followed him down with the camera and found him stripped to his pants in the sea. Proper clear, clean gorgeous atlantic waves.
When he came out we sat on the rocks with the sea wrapping itself around our feet and we ate brie, dates and nachos for breakfast with the rest of our cold coffee. Perfect!
We stayed together on the rocks for 4 hours in the end just 'being' with each other and with the ocean. Feeling a beautiful oneness with nature and with ourselves and with each other. Utterly spiritual in it's beauty. I know it all sounds so cliche but the cliches are cliches for a damn good reason!
We walked into the village, drank tea by the carpark, walked over the beach and brought great coffee then went to find pistachio icecream which we took onto the beach to eat walking through the baby breaks of the waves on the shore. After me having a piggy back across the mid beach stream we went back up and sat on the rocks again. After an annoying interruption from Matts (ex) wife on the phone I got a bit defensive and a bit distant and cross so I walked up to the toilets and met Matt at the truck. To his full credit he let me tell him how pissed off I was, told me not to cry and told me to get it out of my head. It's not always that easy to get out of those silly emotional trips though...
We had both taken a piece of moonstone to recharge in the ocean and Matt said we shouldn't just let the sea wash over the stones we should generate more energy by jumping into the sea with our stones :/ ... Still a bit pissed off I could see where this was going and knew it would be good so we did it :)
It was amazing! (god i use that word sooo much lately...) It was freezing but we were together holding each other totally exhilarated. Suddenly Matt said we should so be naked doing this and I agreed so we pulled our wet clothes off while we were still in the sea and chucked them onto the rocks. We were in an alcove away from the main beach stood in a deep rock pool with the waves rushing in at us through a funnel neck in the rocks and sucking us out when the waves retreated. The power was just phenomenal! We had to hold onto each other and the rocks to keep ourselves from being dashed about! Unbelievably powerful and cleansing-like a natural and pagan baptism if you can get that...
We lay naked on the rocks for an hour after that together just being one, with nature and each other. Bliss. Like there was nothing but us at that time, no past no future no trappings just us and the earth.
We visited my close close friends an old couple called Eddie and Nora on our way home in their farm, arriving unannounced as I always do and that was gorgeous too.
We shared driving home and arrived home around 2.30 am.
What a gorgeous and perfect way to spend 24 hours! |
|
|
| Whitby |
[May. 16th, 2008|12:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | noddy theme tune | ] |
Ok, before I post a 'catch up' journal I got a question. When exactly is Whitby? I thought it was Sept the next one, is it 31 oct? |
|
|
| OMG HEY EVERYONE!!! |
[May. 16th, 2008|11:33 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | death in vegas | ] |
It has been eons since I was on here! Life has changed so much. Again ;)
I'll update properly in a bit just wanted to come say hello!!! xxx |
|
|
| Private swimming pool? |
[Jun. 14th, 2007|12:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  determined | ] |
This is a long shot but does anyone know anyone with a private swimming pool? It doesn't have to be big. I want to do a shoot with a fully dressed couple in water in darkness-a lake at night would be too damn cold I'm sure...
I can't see a public pool allowing me to use their pool for a shoot because I would be running high powered flash lights close to the wateer but I'm thinking if I could rent a private pool for a few hours I could do it there... |
|
|
| Bouncy castle |
[May. 29th, 2007|01:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
Anyone know where I can hire a bouncy castle for next Sundays BBQ here? Cheaply! Want some entertainment for the kids that can be utilized by us so-called-adults too :) |
|
|
| Fucking Indesign!!!!???? |
[Mar. 8th, 2007|04:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
Boloxing wanking flipping cocking InDesign1?!£?!@?£!@£?!@±?£@!±?£±@?$±±@?!£!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm placing images into a template I made. The images are all bigger than the boxes I'm placing into by far. I'm then fitting them into the boxes. The first 4 or 5 went smooth as you like. Now every time I place an image it is importing it and making it a quarter of the size of the fucking box and I'm having to enlarge it not shrink it to fit the wanking box losing quality which is not a fucking option.
GAY INDESIGN BASTARDS!
Help?!?! |
|
|
| Software |
[Mar. 1st, 2007|11:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
Anyone know where I can get hold of any version of Quark for my mac? I'm on os x and for some reason can't run os 9 or classic as my pooter calls it so it would have to run on os x.
Prefferably someone who has it and can rip it for me.
I need a package in which I can import photos into templates I make for the composites I'm offering with RedLens. I wanted to use ACDsee but the silly buggers don't make it for mac.
I also need microsoft publisher or a similar programme, again for mac. I've got office but not publisher. |
|
|
| MSN messenger |
[Feb. 24th, 2007|11:39 am] |
Ok so I've rejoined the world of msn geekville. Who's got an msn ID for me to have?
Mine is darklightimages@hotmail.com-I think thats how it works? |
|
|
| My GF Vegetarian site. |
[Feb. 20th, 2007|05:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
:) W00!
My gluten free vegetarian site is up and running !!! Well, the forum is done anyway. For someone who's not got her head around technical aspects of building anything online I am really pleased with how far I've got today.
The site is http://theglutenfreevegetarian.com/forum/YaBB.pl
I'm now ready to attract traffic, best way to do that anyone? |
|
|
| Website advice |
[Feb. 16th, 2007|03:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
Right.
I am in the process of writing a huge amount of copy for my gluten free vegetarian website and book. I have designed the visual and found someone to build it for me when I'm done. In an effort to save him time and me money I am doing as much of the work as possible myself and I'll provide him with jpegs (presumably) of each element when I'm done and he'll do the magic.
My site will have a forum for us veggie gluten free eaters and I'll advertise it with the vegetarian society and coeliac uk when it's ready.
It has just been suggested to me that I put the forum up in the next few days and let it attract visitors giving me a little more time to work on making a fabulous, quality site. I guess I will then replace the forum with an entire site with the forum being part of it.
Don't know whether to do this or wait till I'm finished and put a full site up straight away.
I wouldn't advertise until it's all done.
Any thoughts? |
|
|
| Gluten Free Vegetarians? |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|12:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | determined | ] |
Hello,
I've just joined this community. I'm a vegetarian and have been for... ooh at least 11 years now and on and off in childhood.
A few years ago I was diagnosed with Coeliac disease for which the only 'cure' is to follow a very strict gluten free diet. I was advised, strongly advised, by the nutritionist and the gastroenterologist to start eatin meat again as remaining vegetarian would make my life seriously difficult.
Eating meat is not and was not an option.
Since most of the vegetarian 'meats' are made with wheat or gluten I can no longer eat them. Most processed vegetarian food also contains gluten.
I have had to go back to basics, which although very healthy can be very frustrating. With a little adaptability and resolve I quickly built up a new way of cooking.
Eating out is a struggle, usually there is a vegetarian option (lets face it, it's going to be pasta!) and a gluten free optin but very often the two are not the same dish. Explaing that I can't have soy sauce in my vegetables at a chinese restaraunt has become a common discussion and more often than not I'm left with the option of a baked potato in most places (if they even do baked potato...)
I'm writing a book for vegetarians following a gluten free diet and I'd love to hear from anyone who has any experience eating gluten free and remaining vegetarian...
Ooops, this was meant to be posted in a community but I'll leave it in anyhow :) |
|
|
| Sleep Routine Help Please! |
[Aug. 17th, 2006|12:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
Ivy's ten weeks old now and hasn't slept a lot since she was born.
Today I spoke to the health visitor about her sleep-her advice in a nutshell was leave her to cry so she knows she's being naughty!!!! WTF!
We start her bedtime routing at 7 and she goes up at 8.30. She's usually down again after an hour of trying to get her to sleep though...
Feed at 10 to 10.30 and up to bed. Takes me an hour to get her to sleep then she sleeps in her moses basket until 4 ish.
Into bed with mummy for feed when she usually suckles for an hour and a half, dozing now and then. She doesn't sleep then at all.
I used to keep her in bed but she is so active and just kicks me and shouts as she seems bored...
I try to put her back in her crib now around 5.30 and get some sleep.
She may sleep for 20 minutes at most.
Daddy usually brings her down at 6 ish for 2 hours and brings her back up around 8 when I feed her and keep her in bed with me.
She barely sleeps though which means nor do I....
Any suggestions???
Health visitor is adament I shouldn't have her in bed with me. If we slept with her in bed I'd happily keep her there but we don't...
In the day she sleeps if we're out-in the pram, sling or car... At home this week I've been manageing to get her to sleep for an hour or two by rocking her crib for 20 minutes or so to get her to sleep. She also will sleep in her sling while I work about the house...
Staying home this week and next to try and establish some kind of sleep routine that actually includes sleeping!
Any advice not of the "cry it out" system would be greatly appreciated. |
|
|
| Photo's at last! |
[Jul. 25th, 2006|12:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
Me and my darling Ivy (aka Pooh Bear, treasure bear, treacle, treasure, puppet and many more).
Taken at the Rise Festival, she was 6 weeks old.
LOVE THAT GIRL!!!!!
Pooh a few days old....
That smile... Melt......
 |
|
|
| Hello world |
[Jul. 6th, 2006|10:37 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
Well.
I've had a few hours sleep a night for the last week. Little miss sleeps for half hour at a time at the moment... Every time she seems to be in a routine she changes...
My mum had her for the first time yesterday for 5 hours so I could get some sleep and tidy the house a bit. Apparently Ivy is just like I was at her age...
Sh'e almost 5 weeks old now. Being a mum is amazing, exhausting and (obviously) life changing.
I want to write about the birth before it gets too hazey-I'll try and find some time later or tomorrow.
Breast feeding is everything I hoped it would be, loving it! Took me hours to express (by hand) 4 ounzes of booby juice for mum to take when she had her but seeing that little bottle full of mothers milk was so cool. It looks watery at first but in bulk it looks just like cows milk. It tastes ultra sweet and is sticky when it gets covered on the skin.
Sometimes when she's had a good feed she falls asleep with a mouthful of milk, As she falls asleep she opens her mouth and the milk pours out all over us both, Hilarious!
She has baths with mummy, didn't like them at first so I gave her booby in the bath which is wonderfully intimate. Had a shower with her the other day which she loved-water all over her face and head!
She really is beautiful-I love her so very much :)
Was fab to see Isabelle and Richard a few weeks ago-visit again! They bought Ivy a "Kinder Goth" CyberDog vest :D Can't wait till it fits her! xx |
|
|
| Is she ever going to come out!?! |
[May. 31st, 2006|06:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
Still no Ivy...!
Contractions for most of yesterday on and off...
Found listening to music to be a great painkiller, almost forgot about the pains until the tracks changed :)
Thank God I'm having her here, by now I'd have been in hospital for a couple of days or back and forth from hospital, pacing hospital corridors with L being sent home when visiting was over if contractions stopped...
Instead, he can work upstairs with me knowing he's nearby but being able to fill my own space with things that distract me from the pains or things that help me into them-yesterday I sang my way through my contractions while I added more plaster of paris bandage to my belly cast. I got up and danced if I wanted to, had a bath when I wanted, went to bed when I wanted, had quiet when I wanted it......
Is more valuable than I could have predicted to be able to have my own space through these early stages, knowing L is on hand the second I need him means I can relax and enjoy the experience without feeling the neediness I thought I'd feel... It's empowering...
Now I can't sleep, had a few hours but contractions woke me up. Now gone again but I'm awake-least I'm in my own home :)
May eat something, labour is bound to kick in with force soon enough....... |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 25th, 2006|07:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fridge noise | ] |
7 am. Right then...
Ivy has been massively active for 36 hours straight now. I didn't sleep much the night before last and last night? well, I'm up because I'm fed up lying in bed wincing as a restless baby uses my bladder as a jumpoline while I try and sleep.
Meh.
Babies are active for 10% of the time apparently. She's making a mockery of that right now!
I can feel her feet and legs both sides of my tummy I think-wierd, her feet usually stay on my left and we play a little game.She sticks her feet out of my side, I grab her feet and say "feeeeeeet!", she takes then away really fast, 2 minutes later..... yep, repetetive games are already ours!
She is so low down now that I can feel her hiccups-which she gets a ridiculous amount of-hitting my pelvic bone. And my bladder.
My bladder has had enough of this abuse now and wants out-hoping bladder won't leave before baby does.....
I want to sleep. Ivy-did you hear me? mummy wants some sleep! How about a little game of .... sleep! |
|
|
| MySpace? |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|02:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
Just done the myspace thing..... At the moment it seems wierd. It's not :LJ... *freaked*
http://www.myspace.com/ravenselene
Assuming thats the link for people to find me?
Must update more often...
Denny-Can we meet up and exchange my sunglasses pleasey?
And Dan... You still have my jacket-be good to get that back although it won't fit for a while!
Going to begin a course of visualisation and hypnosis for birth tonight. Should have done it much earlier to give me time to practise but hey ho... Hoping it will at worst help me to stay relaxed through much of her birth and at best enable me to go through labour and birth drug free... |
|
|
| Touching back in... |
[Apr. 1st, 2006|07:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Type O Negative | ] |
It's been ages since I last updated...
32 weeks pregnant now. Had a scare of pre term labour three weeks ago-she'd have only been 29 weeks cooked but with specialist care would probably have survived! Insane...
Very happy she's still snuggled inside me. She doesn't feel like a lettle fish in my belly any now-more like a monkey! Or a chick trying to bash her way out!
I can spend hours watching her move under my skin, she fascinates me.
I'm pretty big bellied now but still feel gorgeous, although bending down has become a little less than graceful I'm still stretchy and mobile :)
The boat has become a nightmare of sorts, nothing that won't sort but still a worry. I've employed a guy to do some work on the boat. The problem is two fold, one is that he has uncovered a massive dry rot problem (expensive but urgently needs sorting) and two is that I've discovered he is a wanker. Asked him for a flat rate which he has refused to give and his day rates are dubious. Has me over a barrel really-threw his wood down and threatened to walk away mid job when I asked him again for a flat rate (would have left a gaping hole in the side of the boat).
Loads more to say but not really in the mood for a long update.
Hope everyone is well?
Denny-Been meaning to ask you for ages and ages for my sunglasses back! If you're in MK can we meet? The sunny weather IS on it's way...
It is it is it is! |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
ravenselene's journal